Crushing one direction stereotypes one at a time

I recently just went to my first one direction concert. Easily one of the best days of my life. Now I know everyone says they saved their lives and whatsoever… and perhaps they did because they literally saved mine. Last year was the hardest year I’ve had. I had just graduated and was confused as what to do. While all my friends began college or did something productive. My mom who was my best friend, literally was thee best mom you could ask for, did a 360 on me and she began to slip away. I had a little job at a grocery store and i paid a couple bills. It started with the cable and wifi being turned off. I knew i could live with out it. But then i came home and it was cold too cold. Our gas got turned off and our water i was beyond confused but my mom was taking all the money. She met someone and one day I came home from a long shift and everything was gone. Just the stuff in my room was left….. most of it. I found out she was taking pills and her new boyfriend smoked crack. I was beyond crushed. The person who your suppose to trust from the begining . My bestfrirnd my mom who taught me to keep going and watched me cry and watched me grow and helped me and wanted everything for me and called me the apple of her eye just left. Like my existence to her meant nothing. I was so scared and hurt.. and I still am sometimes but I remember being in my house packing up my things and i t was so quiet. I never heard my house so quiet. I felt so alone and I just didn’t even want to live anymore. I didn’t know how I wanted to do it but I wanted it to end. I couldn’t take the quiet anymore and I blasted my radio on… the song what makes you beautiful. I look over at this poster I had just bought that I didn’t even get a chance to put up yet and its Liam giving the biggest smile. Now while I’m crying and mascara is all over my face is red and puffy I start giggling and I get the strength to call my best friend . And even though I didn’t have anywhere to go or anyone to talk to those boys just changed something in me. Now I’m sure some people will think this sounds ridiculous and I understand I honestly thought I’d never be a directioner. Yes I seen the movie and then became a fan . i was actually begged to see the film. I might not be one of those fans that start a twitter trend or have a fan accot.And no I didn’t go through the x facter stage or see the video diaries and them as fetuses. But that does not at all mean that I love them any less than those people. So when I get sad I’ll watch this. Is us. Or listen to their great tunes because they genuinely make me happy.

zedmelik:

FIRST LIAM DIDNT FOLLOW ZAYN BACK ON INSTA THEN HE AINT GONNA NOMINATE HIM FOR THE ICE BUCKET CHALLENGE IM DROWNING IN DISRESPECT

ghivashels:

colinmorgasms:

what if obama does the ice bucket challenge and nominates queen elizabeth

what if obama actually talks about what’s going on in ferguson

(via french)

"Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different?"

"If you have to choose between me and someone else, pick them. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with someone who is going to question if they made the right choice."

"Visualize this thing you want. See it, feel it, believe in it. Make your mental blueprint and begin."

Robert Collier (via feellng)

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